On my Lift app, I’m a member of the group/habit #500WED (500 words every day). I was going to start yesterday’s post with something along the lines of “more like #500WEOD (500 words every other day)” but I didn’t write 500 words yesterday. Ah well c’est la vie.
I’m finding that I’m kind of an all-or-nothing person when it comes to developing new habits: I feel like a failure for missing one day. But that’s kind of a harsh view, no? The point of the habits I’m working on (meditation, 500 words/day, vitamins, etc.) is to help me be a better and more productive person – which emphatically are not all-or-nothing propositions. If I’m a little bit better or more productive today than I was yesterday, then I’ve succeeded. While it’s good to try to hit the mark on all the new habits every day, not succeeding 100% isn’t equivalent to failure. Rather, it’s motivation to do a little bit better tomorrow because I know I can.
I’m sitting on my exercise ball (another new habit) as I type this, btw. Bouncing up and down pretty hard as I listen to my electronica via Pandora. Lots of deleting and rewriting because bouncing and typing is HARD.
Ok, I stopped. I’m at work, as ususal. And waiting for someone to get back to with more details so that I can do them a favor, as usual. I’m getting better about saying no and being less passive-aggressive in the office. If someone tries to task me with something that’s not in my silo, I politely tell them that’s not my job. If someone asks me to do something and I’m like “I need X, Y, and Z from you before I can get that done,” I no longer sit staring at my inbox, hating them a little more every minute that goes by that they don’t reply with what I need. Instead, I walk over to their office and politely tell them “MOTHERFUCKER I DON’T HAVE TIME FOR THIS SHIT. WHEN YOU GET AN EMAIL FROM ME, READ IT AND REPLY WITH FULL ANSWERS TO MY QUESTIONS OR I WILL FUCK YOUR SHIT UP.” I realize that it’s a little more on the aggressive side, but it’s been working so far.
379 words today. Looks like I fail again.